an addendum

I have to be honest.
For every beginning, there is an ending.
If the first song off Take Love Easy speaks to me of a beautiful new love, the last song on the album, ironically, hits me painfully hard in mourning a love lost. Especially this time of year.

Sometimes, it's easier not to think about it; sometimes, not thinking about it means that when memories catch me by surprise, it hurts that much more.

I wish...
That bits of memories weren't scattered here and there;
That a song or something in the air again
Won't mean that he'll be there again
A moment in what might have been
I wish these lyrics didn't ring so true.
But they do.

Where do you start?
How do you separate the present from the past?
How do you deal with all the things you thought would last?
That didn't last
With bits of memories scattered here and there
I look around and don't know where to start

Which books are yours?
Which tapes and dreams belong to you, and which are mine?
Our lives are tangled like the branches of a vine
That intertwine
So many habits that we'll have to break
And yesterdays we'll have to take apart

One day there'll be a song or something in the air again
To catch me by surprise and you'll be there again
A moment in what might have been

Where do you start?
Do you allow yourself a little time to cry?
Or do you close your eyes and kiss it all goodbye?
I guess you try

And though I don't know where and don't know when
I'll find myself in love again
I promise there will always be a little place no one will see
A tiny part within my heart that stays in love with you

Where Do You Start,
as sung by Sophie Milman